explanation

dear diary,

as we say good night, inevitably a favorite partner would say to me that we had not danced. i have been troubled. how come i have become so reluctant to dance with women who have shared incredible moments with me?

lomyl hears my confusion, and tells me some anecdotes. and then it comes to me: i am emotionally transparent when i dance. i am emotionally transparent in general. and the dance just magnifies whatever it is that i feel. Bored, happy, tense, angry, overwhelmed...

lomyl tells me that i can't be afraid (knowing that whatever it is that i experience will be felt by my partners, GOOD and BAD), otherwise i will stop growing.

i have been afraid to share the BAD!

aha!

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