Mari writes eloquently about Intimate Mixture. I suspect I am no different from other tanguero(a)s, in that my everyday conversations are somehow related or connected to the Tango. My colleagues don't believe me when I tell them that my experiences on the dance floor are not sexual. They don't understand the distinction that I make, between the sensuous and the sexual. They don't believe that I am not thinking about (shhh...) SEX! They shake their heads when I tell them that I burst into tears, in the middle of a song, JUST BECAUSE...
... in the middle of a song, my friend turns her head, so that she now faces me; her nose next to mine; her breath brushing my cheek; we are in the moment. as we wait for the next song, she sees my eyes, and follows in the direction of my gaze, towards lomyl. a moment of "discomfort(?)," until lomyl smiles at her, at us, happy that we are enjoying the set.
... i don't know of a sweeter moment, when (and i never know when this happens) i feel my partner fully accepts me. i cherish these times and carry them in my memory for days. ok this is the best part: sometimes i don't even know my partner's name.
... when my partner cannot stop smiling, when her eyes twinkle, that's just... oh man, that's just 1000 times more better than sex. but then, i don't know that my non-Tango friends would understand the sublime and delicious intimacy in the Tango.
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I am so honoured that you read (and linked) my post. I always come here for inspiration. :)
To be fully accepted in the moment is so miraculous a feeling that I'm stunned any time it happens. I want to turn it over, that experience I mean, like a snow globe and just watch it swirl and settle around me.
"when my partner cannot stop smiling" - I love that. When it's me I smile so much that my face nearly hurts from it and my eyes water. When it's my partner, well, there is nothing better, is there? We grin at each other, suddenly like children we may giggle or just sigh.
Of course if I giggle I become completely incapable of dancing for some reason. Unfortunately, I giggle *a lot*. :D
Thanks for this. I'm with ya.
@Mari, I am giddy that we share similar experiences.
@RedShoes, totally. I have so many more questions that I want to ask.
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But does all this still leave me unsatisfied. People (non-dancers, non-tanguero/as?) DO have in their minds this misperception.
Or, maybe, it's just that Mari, RedShoes, and Me are on the fringe, outliers, and everyone else really are conjuring all those S*XY thoughts.
It is frustrating when it seems you're the only one that sees something a particular way. I think it can be good just let people know that there are other ways to look at things by writing it on a public forum. No one has to agree or disagree - it just gets people (hopefully) thinking the possibilities.
@Me - I'm giddy too.
@Red Shoes - your post was wonderful - I'm right in that boat with ya.
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