two sides

dear diary,

at the practica, i didn't ask her to dance. i felt funny about that. maybe i felt guilty. about two months ago, we danced for the first time. after that, every week, i looked for her, and we would dance for one set. this time, i didn't want to. of course, it's not as if she was looking for me. actually, i don't know whether she was or not. i never know what followers think.

lomyl tells me that she doesn't understand why men are so fickle. sometimes they ask her to dance. sometimes they don't. is it something about her? don't they enjoy dancing with her? (here it is: women wonder about men too!)

expectation. once you dance with a person, and you enjoy the experience, it can be awkward when you don't feel like it, just because.